Jesus:
I am pleased with your efforts, O soul aspiring for perfection,
but why do I see you so often sad and depressed? Tell Me, My child,
what is the meaning of this sadness, and what is its cause?
Soul: Lord, the reason for
my sadness is that, in spite of my sincere resolutions. I fall again
into the same faults. I make resolutions in the morning, but in the
evening I see how much I have departed from them.
Jesus:
You see, My child, what you are of yourself. The cause of
your falls is that you rely too much upon yourself and too little
on Me. But let this not sadden you so much. You are dealing with the
God of mercy, which your misery cannot exhaust. Remember, I did not
allot only a certain number of pardons.
Soul: Yes I know all that,
but great temptations assail me, and various doubts awaken within
me and moreover everything irritates and discourages me.
Jesus:
My child, know that the greatest obstacles to holiness are
discouragement and an exaggerated anxiety. These will not deprive
you of the ability to practice virtue. All temptations united together
ought not disturb your interior peace, not even momentarily. Sensitiveness
and discouragement are fruits of self-love. Have confidence, My child.
Do not lose heart in coming for pardon, for I am always ready to forgive
you. As often as you beg for it, you glorify My mercy.
Soul: I understand what is
the better thing to do, what pleases You more, but I encounter great
obstacles in acting on this understanding.
Jesus:
My child, life on earth is a struggle indeed; a great struggle
for My Kingdom. But fear not, because you are not alone. I am always
supporting you, so lean on Me as you struggle, fearing nothing. Take
the vessel of trust and draw from the fountain of life—for yourself,
but also for other souls, especially such as are distrustful of My
goodness.
Soul: O Lord, I feel my heart
being filled with Your love and the rays of Your mercy and love piercing
my soul. I go, Lord at Your command. I go to conquer souls. Sustained
by Your grace, I am ready to follow You Lord, not only to Tabor, but
also to Calvary. I desire to lead souls to the fount of Your mercy
so that the splendor of Your mercy maybe reflected in all souls, and
the home of Our Father be filled to overflowing. And when the enemy
begins to attack me, I shall take refuge behind the shield of Your
mercy.
